Published On: Mon, Jan 20th, 2014

Waking Up A Stranger

I remember waking Robina1up one day and forgetting who I was.  After the birth of my three sons, now ages 9, 7 and 5, I became this self-imposed “supermum”.  I quit my job of being a Registered Nurse to stay home to raise my boys.  I had a hard time letting anyone babysit my kids and was very protective of them from the get go!

I love everything about being a mum.  I live for my boys and always knew the choice I made to leave my profession and become a stay at home mum (I prefer the term “Domestic Diva”) was the best decision I ever made.  I got to witness every milestone my boys hit, and also witnessed every change in their personas as the years went by.

One day when I was walking up a small flight of stairs I realised that I was out of breath.  This was a turning point for me. I remember thinking “How did I get here?” When did I stop caring about my health? I realised that something needed to change; I needed to find myself again.

When I looked in the mirror, I no longer recognised my reflection.  I was overweight, overindulgent in junk food, and lived in lululemon clothing because nothing else fit me.  Where did the athletic, fit, high school athlete go?  I became this unconfident, insecure woman, who hid behind the role of motherhood, and was scared to take time to invest in my own life.

I joined a local mummy fitness group to get more social and healthy.   I worked hard to lose the weight and had great success doing so through breastfeeding, overtraining (working out way too much), and under eating (and eating Robina2junk food).  I was consuming a lot of veggies, and protein but never enough carbs.  I started shedding the weight (60+ lbs. for every child due to a shortened cervix which put me on bed rest from 7 months on) but also noticed that I was cranky (because I wasn’t eating properly), and would feel “guilty” if I didn’t indulge in my new guilty pleasure of working out.  Working out became my “me” time and my solitude, and I had a hard time giving it up.

I remember a lot changing when the boys all started full time school. I felt lonely, and almost like I wasn’t needed- so I decided that I needed to reinvent myself.  My love for health and fitness grew so I embarked on becoming a personal trainer.  Having the difficult pregnancies and gaining so much weight really helped me strive to find a balance between nutrition and fitness. I struggled for years to find that balance but it wasn’t until I decided to really take my fitness to the next level and compete did I really learn the key.

I realised the importance of diet, and the balance between life and health.  I learned that my health does not only take place in the walls of a gym but more importantly when I leave the gym.  Rest, happiness and stress management also play a key role.  I started to feel alive again and also knew that this newfound energy that I had was also great for our family life.  I love that my boys watch me workout and want to be a part of it.

I am not only working on my own health but also instilling the importance of health and fitness in my boys while living my life with passion.

By Robina Abramson 2014
Copyright 2014

Robina is a mother of three who found herself on a downward spiral. This story is about how she overcame the hurdles many of us mummies face, but choose to put it into the too hard basket. Her story is inspirational.

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